Life is full of silly walks and dead parrots

Well this is my first blog...hmmm so bare with me. I guess a little bit about myself won't hurt. I'm 31 and I have a beautiful 5 month old daughter. I'm outgoing yet quiet and shy at times. I usually don't like to be the center of attention, I love to watch from the outside. Though at times depending on my mood I'll put myself in there. I am definitely a lot louder (esp during a hockey game haha) and more outspoken now then I was in the past. And won't put up with a lot of crap from people

I was always or I guess more "felt" like the shadow of the group. I didn't consider myself popular, but did have a large group of friends. But we weren't part of the norm or popular crowds. But I was part of the raver/skater crowd throughout high school. We didn't follow the MEC trend that was popular during high school. I was quiet and just kinda followed the crowd, wasn't a leader. I was really easy going and almost too nice. Hence why alot of people would use that to their advantage.

Don't want to spend to much time on the past but all of that made me stronger and made me into who I am now. I will speak up for myself and won't let people use me or push me around anymore. I'll tell it like it is.

Okie dokie now to talk about the reason I guess I wanted to start blogging. Soooo much I need to get off my chest. Ugh alot of crap going on recently. I mentioned early I have a daughter. She is my life, sooo beatiful and quirky haha. Loves making spit bubbles and just pretty much spraying it all over the place. I would never change anything about her buuuttttt I would change who her father is. He is an ABSOLUTE DOUCHEBAG. He had the nerve throughout the entire pregnancy to promise me he would be there 100% for her IF she turned out to be his. Obv that's not the case. We did the test and she was def his. That was when she was 2 months. For about 2 weeks after he would txt asking about her and only stopped by 3-4 times and only for about 5-10 min. And I suggested we make up our own support and visitation aggreement and he agreed. But each txt slowly became longer and longer apart. After a while i just was soooo fed up and let him know that I'm going to do everything legally now. It wasn't a threat but I just couldn't wait around for him to start helping support his daughter. Also I just wanted to cover my butt and get papers stating what custody I had. He said "Sounds good! Alot easier for me so see you in court" He even ignored the agreement letter my lawyer sent. So hence why it's now going to court.

So pretty much that's where I am right now. I just can't get over how someone does not want to be involved in such a beautiful little girls life. Guess it's just sooo hard to give up the partying and getting laid. Well whatever he can pretty much go fuck himself right now.

Haha well that little rant helped a bit. Anyhoo it's such a gorgeous day outside. Can't spend it all day on the comp.